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I'm around but kind of hermiting right now. The past couple of weeks were a bit difficult, so I've mostly just been chilling when I can.

Last Sunday would have been my dad's 68th birthday, and it hit me a bit hard this year. I have really felt his absence this year. I would have loved to hear his humorous take on the shit show that this year has been. Although I would have also worried constantly about him and his job as it involved going into big box stores to fix car audio and home theater displays and involved a hell of a lot of travel. But mostly I have really found myself missing his voice.

There was also some stuff that happened on one of my alumni groups that left me exhausted and stirred up some bad memories and issues. So that was fun. ( TW: Mentions of suicide and transphobia )

I'm slowly started to feel on a more even keel (or at least as even a keel as anyone can be right now). But this is why I've been mostly quiet. Just haven't had the spoons for words.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Sitting on the Dock of the Bay (Live) - Sara Bareilles

Found out today that one of my law school friends died. She was close to my age and I know struggled with her own demons. She was bright, funny, and compassionate. She will be missed.

So many bright lights gone in the past year and a half. Some I knew from personal experience and friendship, and some I only knew by their works. I raise a glass to all of them and hope that their lights find peace in whatever is next.