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alee_grrlThe past month or so has been a bit of a trial. My body, emotions and brain entered into a lengthy and turbulent debate regarding priorities. My brain was all for studying and school, but my body and emotions decided to rebel (stress...it is not your friend). To top it off it seems my anti-depressant has not been doing its job of keeping me on an even keel. Since it's been a little while since I had such a major depressive episode, it took me a few weeks to realize what was going on. Once I did I was able to take steps to help myself.
I called my doc and explained what was going on. The office got me in to see one of the other practitioners since my doc was not available til January 7th. The doc I saw suggested a trial period of Abilify as adjunctive therapy. I started that on Tuesday, and today I noticed that it seems to be having an effect. We'll see how things go in the next few weeks. Finals start on Wednesday, so I am hoping to be functional, or closer to it, by then. I also set up a counseling appointment, and have done a lot of talking with friends. I have some amazing friends, and I am very thankful for their support.
Today was a weirdly mixed bag. I managed to get out of bed (success!) and through my last day of classes (huzzah!) even managed to get some work done on my outlines and studying for finals (yay!). However, I found myself completely overwhelmed when I went to the end of class/holiday party (headdesk.). There were way to many people for my raw and frazzled nerves, plus I was feeling really awkward. So instead of staying for the talent show (which looked to be a lot of fun) I headed home for a hot shower and some fic reading. My plans were disrupted (for the better) when a friend called to see if I'd had dinner yet. We ended up heading over a town (or two) for Thai food. It was a lovely evening and a nice chance to get to know one of my newer law school friends better. On the way home I stopped in at the local club (for all of five minutes, but that's five minutes I hadn't spent in there before). Another friend really wanted me to stop by, so I thought I'd give it a try. I think most of the school (students at least) and part of the town (it is very small, but still) were in there. I stayed long enough to say hi to a few people, and then bailed. It was fun seeing people's reactions to me being there though. I got a lot of "your here!" remarks. All of these remarks were positive though. People were just surprised to see I exist outside of class. I'm not really one for going out at night. I prefer quiet nights with internet time and hot tea.
The short walk home through the cold night was amazingly beautiful. The snow was starting to come down faster, and watching it dance in the glow of street and porch lights was great fun. Now I really must get ready for bed though. I have lots I want to do tomorrow (x-mas shopping, not so x-mas shopping, studying, cleaning...though not in that particular order). Goodnight, fellow dreamers.
I called my doc and explained what was going on. The office got me in to see one of the other practitioners since my doc was not available til January 7th. The doc I saw suggested a trial period of Abilify as adjunctive therapy. I started that on Tuesday, and today I noticed that it seems to be having an effect. We'll see how things go in the next few weeks. Finals start on Wednesday, so I am hoping to be functional, or closer to it, by then. I also set up a counseling appointment, and have done a lot of talking with friends. I have some amazing friends, and I am very thankful for their support.
Today was a weirdly mixed bag. I managed to get out of bed (success!) and through my last day of classes (huzzah!) even managed to get some work done on my outlines and studying for finals (yay!). However, I found myself completely overwhelmed when I went to the end of class/holiday party (headdesk.). There were way to many people for my raw and frazzled nerves, plus I was feeling really awkward. So instead of staying for the talent show (which looked to be a lot of fun) I headed home for a hot shower and some fic reading. My plans were disrupted (for the better) when a friend called to see if I'd had dinner yet. We ended up heading over a town (or two) for Thai food. It was a lovely evening and a nice chance to get to know one of my newer law school friends better. On the way home I stopped in at the local club (for all of five minutes, but that's five minutes I hadn't spent in there before). Another friend really wanted me to stop by, so I thought I'd give it a try. I think most of the school (students at least) and part of the town (it is very small, but still) were in there. I stayed long enough to say hi to a few people, and then bailed. It was fun seeing people's reactions to me being there though. I got a lot of "your here!" remarks. All of these remarks were positive though. People were just surprised to see I exist outside of class. I'm not really one for going out at night. I prefer quiet nights with internet time and hot tea.
The short walk home through the cold night was amazingly beautiful. The snow was starting to come down faster, and watching it dance in the glow of street and porch lights was great fun. Now I really must get ready for bed though. I have lots I want to do tomorrow (x-mas shopping, not so x-mas shopping, studying, cleaning...though not in that particular order). Goodnight, fellow dreamers.
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Date: 2010-12-11 04:38 pm (UTC)