Meditation via Tarot Reading

So I've been feeling rather restless and discontent recently. I decided tonight to sit down and do a tarot reading for myself (though it has been a while since I've done one) as a way to meditate on the issues bothering me. I did it in a slightly different way than I used to, which was to do the reading but no journalling or note taking. Just meditate on the reading quietly in my own thoughts. I realized today how much more helpful it can be to write out those meditation (NB: if you see a slip up in here that replaces meditation with medication, it is probably because I already took my sleepy time medication tonight). After going through the process I feel much calmer and happier about things. As I skimmed over what I wrote I realized that some of my friends might be interested in reading it. If just for ideas on tarot as meditation.

Please note that I do not consider myself a professional tarot card reader, and am open to others interpretations of the cards drawn. For me this was a process of meditation, of checking in with the here and now and how things are going. I would love to hear what others think. ( Full essay/tarot reading under the cut )