B- is an ok grade, right?
Jan. 3rd, 2011 12:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
So one class has posted grades so far. I got a B- on my Contracts final. Part of me feels like I should be really happy with this grade as I was worried about this final. It was my first law school final, it was closed book, and I had missed quite a few classes due to depression and fibro flares. But my Hermione tendencies are screaming at me that this just ins't good enough. I have spent a great deal of time trying to convince myself that a B average is fine, but I've never had less than a 3.0 and rarely less than a 3.5 GPA and if I get one C I might just find myself with a lower GPA than I've ever had.
While intellectually I know that grades are less important that actual skills, and I have actual skills aplenty, part of me has been trained to see grades as a marker of accomplishment and getting less than a 3.5 is a sign of failure. It's ridiculous, but the thought of it has my gut in knots.
So I am trying to acknowledge that this is an old routine, or old programing if you will, and that it isn't a valid program anymore. I remind myself that I have lots of skills and am a great asset in an office. This is all much easier said than done though.
I think I'll distract myself with some cleaning. That is at least one way to feel accomplished. :)
While intellectually I know that grades are less important that actual skills, and I have actual skills aplenty, part of me has been trained to see grades as a marker of accomplishment and getting less than a 3.5 is a sign of failure. It's ridiculous, but the thought of it has my gut in knots.
So I am trying to acknowledge that this is an old routine, or old programing if you will, and that it isn't a valid program anymore. I remind myself that I have lots of skills and am a great asset in an office. This is all much easier said than done though.
I think I'll distract myself with some cleaning. That is at least one way to feel accomplished. :)
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Date: 2011-01-11 05:43 am (UTC)Most people realize that not everyone tests well under every circumstance and you are absolutely right that good, sharp skills are far more important than grades.
*hands you a plate of calorie free chocolate fudge brownies* I think you owe yourself a pat on the back for doing so well despite the factors against you. *nods*
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Date: 2011-01-11 01:19 pm (UTC)It's been very helpful that I've had a lot of friends remind me that I'm not exactly one of the fresh out of college healthy young people in my class either. I've been out of school for a bit, and have considerations that a lot of others don't. Plus as you pointed out, graduate study is on a totally different level from undergraduate school. So I'm feeling a lot better about my grades than I had. Thank you for the support and brownies. :D It really does mean a lot to me.