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Godzilla sized brain weasels are no fun at all
I'm not doing very well mentally right now, though I am trying to take care of myself. And one of the ways I can possibly help is by speaking out loud about what my brain and anxiety is doing so others can help me confirm that the brain weasels are indeed lying liars who lie.
I woke up on Wednesday with a headache and a bit of a stuffy head. Hoping it was just stress and allergies, I let folks at work know I was going to lay back down for a bit and that I would likely be late to work. My headache was better when I got up, so I went into work. Then I starting dealing with a sore throat and slight cough. By the end of the day I was feeling pretty crummy. We decided I'd work from home the rest of the week, unless I felt I wasn't up to even that. I stopped by the store to pick up a few things, feeling guilty for being out when I wasn't feeling well but knowing that I needed to get things cause I was likely to be cooped up for a while. I had previously stocked up on some things, but I was out of my usual fruit and out of meat.
I've done my best to minimize my time of facebook and such for my own mental health. And I've been relying on discord to feel more connected and less isolated, which does help.
But of course, I can't avoid all the memes that are going around (and some are very entertaining). However, a lot of the "people are stupid and panicking over nothing" memes aren't helping my mental health. I know that they aren't necessarily directed at me, but it's making my brain weasels act up something fierce. Especially since many of my observable symptoms are mild. I'm not hacking up a lung, my nose isn't dripping like a leaky faucet, I'm not running a fever by medical standards (ignoring that my normal body temp is well below the average so 98 degrees is probably a fever for me). So all I can hear is my mother's voice telling me that I'm not really sick, I'm just being lazy or looking for attention. I keep trying to tell myself that if I were truly lazy I would not have worked (albeit from home) Thursday and Friday, but brain weasels can be very loud and insistent buggers.
So I am doing what I often struggle to do, which is to actual say aloud that I am struggling. If you are also struggling, please know that you are not alone in that. I hope that everyone is taking care of themselves as best they can in this crazy world. <3 <3 <3
I woke up on Wednesday with a headache and a bit of a stuffy head. Hoping it was just stress and allergies, I let folks at work know I was going to lay back down for a bit and that I would likely be late to work. My headache was better when I got up, so I went into work. Then I starting dealing with a sore throat and slight cough. By the end of the day I was feeling pretty crummy. We decided I'd work from home the rest of the week, unless I felt I wasn't up to even that. I stopped by the store to pick up a few things, feeling guilty for being out when I wasn't feeling well but knowing that I needed to get things cause I was likely to be cooped up for a while. I had previously stocked up on some things, but I was out of my usual fruit and out of meat.
I've done my best to minimize my time of facebook and such for my own mental health. And I've been relying on discord to feel more connected and less isolated, which does help.
But of course, I can't avoid all the memes that are going around (and some are very entertaining). However, a lot of the "people are stupid and panicking over nothing" memes aren't helping my mental health. I know that they aren't necessarily directed at me, but it's making my brain weasels act up something fierce. Especially since many of my observable symptoms are mild. I'm not hacking up a lung, my nose isn't dripping like a leaky faucet, I'm not running a fever by medical standards (ignoring that my normal body temp is well below the average so 98 degrees is probably a fever for me). So all I can hear is my mother's voice telling me that I'm not really sick, I'm just being lazy or looking for attention. I keep trying to tell myself that if I were truly lazy I would not have worked (albeit from home) Thursday and Friday, but brain weasels can be very loud and insistent buggers.
So I am doing what I often struggle to do, which is to actual say aloud that I am struggling. If you are also struggling, please know that you are not alone in that. I hope that everyone is taking care of themselves as best they can in this crazy world. <3 <3 <3